Goodbye

I learned a lot this past year. And I think writing it really helped me. I thought things couldn't get much more chaotic then my grade nine year, but I'm rapidly being proven wrong. I've gained friends, lost friends, and renewed old friendships. I'm thankful for it all.

But I'm getting to that inevitable time again. When things start to repeat. I once said to a close friend that "my life is like a broken record. Happy, mad, depressed, empty, happy, mad..." I was very accurate in that statement.

Perhaps you'll follow me to my new blog. If not, goodbye. If yes, I'm not helping you get there. If you've learned anything from this blog, it's that life will always present you with challenges. Well, life's taught me this, too. Suppose I'll give you a challenge for once.

Thank you

-Persephone

Beehive

Blushing petals on translucent skin

sting with the force of a thousand bees.

Scratching on translucent skin,

like an angry swarm.

The bees are stinging

in transparent drops of an internal ocean.

Those blushing petals on translucent skin

shine with the tears of an angry swarm.

Without rhyme,

without reason,

attacking like an angry swarm,

provoked at the slightest thought.

"Why?"

ask closed minds.

"Why is your skin raw?"

they say, oblivious to the angry swarm.

Her smile is broken,

beautiful as half a porcelain doll.

"I don't know,"

she whispers.

-Persephone

Giants

My health's alright, I guess. It's certainly been... Better. The doctor has ruled out asthma and my birth control pills as the cause. They think there's a good possibility it's simply a manifestation of my stress. I'll be going into the Hospital on Monday and again in a month for more tests. I got a blood test done today, too, but we're still waiting on those results.

Today I had an... Attack, I guess, during class. It felt like a giant had grabbed me and was crushing all the air out of my lungs. It was terrifying. I ran outside and tried to catch my breath, but I've been dizzy and have had a migraine since. It's gotten worse and better in waves.

More updates later.

The new blog for Cookie and I will be started. I'll give the link to it once we start posting, too. This blog will be abandoned in favour of the other. But y'all can still follow me and my sister over there! It'll be wonderful, psycho times on the other side at Manor Prosa.

-Persephone

Cookies and Cream

Hi y'all~! Cookie's here with me today~!

HI.

She's not very... outspoken a lot of the time. She's very shy...

Am not.

Oh shush. Anywho~! So the two of us are gonna do a blog postie for those of you who bother to read this! What have we done this evening, Cookie, dear~?

Butchered our nails.

Ah, yes. But we cleaned up most of the mess!!! It's not that bad... Heh... Cookie's sister just showed me her... doll... thing peeing and then tooted... awkward... So glad she can't read calligraphy, as the text shows up on this computer. I'm pretty sure that my computer is the only one that doesn't show up quite so cursive... Not that I have a problem with that.

I don't really know why we came on here in the first place.

OH! News! That new blog for my muses? Yeah, screw that idea. Now it's gonna be used for Cookie and I! So that we can stay connected for once instead of having to find time every couple of months to try and call each other only to find out the other is busy and can't answer the phone or something like that... Yeah... Not fun. So anyway! Yup! You'll have two useless lives to read about! The new blog's going to be called Manor Prosa. It's a Latin word that means prose which is... Well yeah just look it up in the dictionary. I'm too lazy to explain such a simple word to you all...

Cookie stop looking it up in the dictionary.

Prose. Ahem. It means "unversified language. esp. as a form of literature; plain speech. v.i. talk tediously." Did you know that "proselyte" means gentile conversion to Jewish faith?

Uh... No I didn't..? Because I would totally know what "proselyte" means...

Excuse me while we bicker over if Cookie said "i" or "a."

-Cookie and Cream

Currently Here

Boys: Soturi, Kyo

Girls: Mikael, Amira, Megumi

Ringing

Last night he hit me.

Now my head won't stop ringing.

-Persephone

Currently Here

Boys: Soturi

Girls: Sparrow

Speak of the Devil

Wanna hear an awkward story? Of course you do.

Last night I went to the pool with Darlene. It was seriously fun. We started talking about my weird relationship with Jones and all this stuff and I explained things to her.

You probably know now where this is going from the title.

So I dragged her up to the five meter... And then there was Jones. Damn he's attractive. But his necklace was missing... He use to wear this silver chain all the time. I never saw him without it before. But he seems a little different... A little less full of himself.

As you can guess, it was awkward. Really, really, painfully awkward. At least he said hi first? I asked him about rugby... He asked how I'd been... It was so painfully awkward. I've never felt quite so awkward in my life. I just knew I had to get out of there and soon. There was this really tense moment of silence, then I just bolted off the board. It was awful and so, so, soooo awkward. But don't you worry! The story gets worse~!

If that wasn't enough, Jones began avoiding me quite obviously. He couldn't even look at me. He wouldn't go on the diving boards if I was there. He would never pass those up! He lived for tricks. He's learned a few more, too.

He was there with... Ah, I need new nicknames...

Well, anyway, he was there with some people who are also my friends. They stopped to talk to me and they had been heading to the diving boards. Jones actually climbed over the rope fence thingie in order to not walk past me and get to the diving boards.

What the Hell.

So Darlene and I went up to the diving boards again later, once I'd talked to one of my friend about how guilty I feel about the break up. I lied to him about why I broke up with him, just wanting a clean break... But my friend said that Jones probably didn't care, that it was fine and all was forgotten. Not exactly, though, considering the awkwardness. My friend said that I shouldn't worry about it, that if I want to say something, I could and Jones would likely shrug the whole thing off.

So, anyway, Darlene and I went up to the diving boards and ran into Jones, of course. I acted like nothing was weird... Jones took one look at me, then pointedly put his arm out to block me both getting onto the platform and/or talking to him. Rude much?

Then I try to talk to him and he just runs away! I jumped off the board quickly after him and he just bolts for the hot tub. Seriously?! All I wanted was to talk! To say sorry!

Boys are so frustrating when their egos have been hurt.

Later I ran into Jones' best friend. Or ex-best friend, as I should say. They had a fallout over a girl, got into a fight about something stupid, and now they aren't talking. It was building up, though, something I could tell when I would hang out with the two of them. Jones always bossed him around, since Jones always had to be right. I explained to him about how Jones had been acting... He understood way better. It was so relaxed talking to him, too! I got a lot out of it. I really want to confront Jones and explain to him that I only broke up with him because he was being so overbearing and that I got scared. Not that I had played him, like I had said in order to get a clean break. It was messy... I want to patch things up, try and be friends. I really feel guilty.

And I wonder why he acted like he did... If he'd forgotten about me and gotten over it, wouldn't he have been nicer? Honestly, it felt like we'd only just broken up. That fresh awkwardness when you run into a new ex about a week later, even though it's been so long. I really want to know what's going on in his head! Be friend or something...

Damn him for being so sensitive. Maybe I'll get a chance eventually to clear things up.

-Persephone

Currently Here

Boys: Soturi, Kyo

Girls: Amira, Megumi, Mikael, Sparrow

Maintenance

Right! Few things to cover, but first thing's first!

Darlene! She's a really great friend of mine that I seem to have failed to mention on this blog. She's coming over in roughly twenty minutes to spend the night and tomorrow and it's gonna be a blast! We plan to jam and dance and have awesome fun. She's got a blog with Jack, but she doesn't post much. Not that I can say anything... I don't write every day like I promised, either. Hypocritical much? Well, y'all know me by now.

Anyway, so we're hanging out!

Another note, Poseidon and I were talking about making a band. I've wanted to make one since I was in grade six and I can play a variety of instruments. I've written a couple songs, not that they're anything too special, and have always got some tune or other in my head. I have a good feeling about it. I'd add the reason we've started to do this... but it's connected to a secret that cannot be revealed until a later time!

More to come, obviously.

I was going to add something else... Something important... Can't remember.

On another hand, I've got more appointments for the doctor. Going to see her on December 1st and I'll be in the hospital on the 5th getting some experiments done.

SO! That sums things up. One other thing, but I can't remember it...

Aha, I remember! The new blog! It will be happening, but I'll likely keep posting here, as well. Just a head's up! Once I figure some stuff out on it, I'll put the link up.

-Persephone

Currently Here

Boys: Kyo, Soturi, Neji, Mikael (1)

Girls: Amira, Megumi, Mikael (2), Sparrow, Tenten