48 Hours

The week at camp was awesome in many ways and awful in others and average in a few. The weather was so nice, the scenery was amazing, the food was great, there were dances, events were pretty fun, I got to spend time with Poseidon, Teddy, and a new friend who I will call... Umm... Maka. So that was all awesome stuff. The average stuff... I guess was that there wasn't a lot to do, I had to wake up fairly early, things kept breaking (toilets broke four times, two showers broke, one sink got messed up, broke a mop, broke a door...), and I got migraines a lot. Awful stuff... I think that would be the fact that I was kinda down in the dumps for a good while and that the girls in my cabin were all so distant and stuff. But mainly it was just my down mood.

I've been really stressed lately. I haven't seen Cookie in forever and I feel like all we ever talk about it negative things. And stuff is changing... I don't know how, but it feels like it is. Not in a good way, either. I feel like we're slipping away from each other and it scares me. She's my best friend... Huff.

I'm also stressed about my injuries. They still hurt. People keep telling me that they'll go away eventually... But the injury from two years ago still causes me pain. I can't do a lot of things I used to be able to do. It's kinda frightening, to be honest. I feel really weak, all the time, and I hate to feel weak. Poseidon says that I don't need to be able to do swimming, that I'll find something. Sports aren't everything. And he's right. But I feel like I need them. And he said that eventually I'll be able to do things I used to. But... It's just so hard. My body's so weak. It can't do things I want it to. He made me feel a lot better, saying that for what I lack in physical strength is made up in mental strength. And I think he's right about that. I'm strong... Mentally.

But I don't feel like I am right now.

Another thing. Jones is attempting to talk to be again and all that. It just makes me nervous. I spoke to Cookie about it and she says if I want to stop being afraid of him, I have to start talking to him again and face my fear. I know she's right... But it's scary. One of those irrational fears, right? Maybe if I just chin up, I'll get over it.

I can't avoid him forever.

Big sigh! Anyway, I'm home from camp, I had a lot of stress, I'm over most of it. There's more little things, but they don't really matter much anymore. Cookie and Poseidon helped me to feel better. I wish I could bring them with me.

Where am I going? Well, I got back from the camp/resort/thing yesterday. Tomorrow morning, I'm leaving on a huge road trip and will return on the 30th. I'm going to the mainland again to see a concert, then farther inland to visit family, then down for the IronMan that my dad's going to be in (crazy idiot he is). It's going to be long, boring, and frustration filled, since my grandfather's going to be there for a good amount of it. I'm going to be spending all my time with my mom, trying to escape the boys.

I'd do anything to have those two with me... Or anybody, to be frank.

No, muses, you don't count.

-Persephone

Currently Here

Boys: Kyo, Soturi

Girls: Amarina, Angel, Megumi

Dormant: Neji, Sparrow, Tenten

Mainland

Gosh, I'm so tired. This probably isn't a good thing... Considering I'm going to be on a bus for the majority of tomorrow and I'm staying at Poseidon's tonight. Definitely shouldn't've tried to stay up talking to him all night, huh? Yeah, not smart.

Anyway, this will be my last post for quite some time. I'm going to a resort/camp/thing on the mainland tomorrow, so I thought I'd give a little update of everything before.

What's happened... Well, not much, actually. I recently found a new Vocaloid/whatever named Miki. She's my new favourite! I love her so much. Her voice kinda sounds a little bit like mine, too, which means I can actually sing along to her songs without straining my voice to reach high or low notes like I have to do with Luka, Miku, and Rin. With Len it's a little easier... But it's still kinda hard to get the low notes he sings at times. So I can sing along to Miki! And I've found so much of her music that I love. My favourite song of hers at the moment is "Dive Into Blue." It's really great.

Well... My life is kinda boring at the moment, I suppose. I'll definitely have stuff to write about after I go to the resort/camp/thing. And then I'll write about the Sade concert I'm going to after that! And then I'll write a long entry about road trips, most likely. Then there might be some replies like that complaining about family. Then I'll give a post about how the IronMan went! My dad's insane, he's entering it.

And he's 50!!

-Persephone

Currently Here

Boys: Kyo, Neji, Soturi

Girls: Amarina, Tenten

Dormant: Megumi, Melina, Sparrow

Coffee Shops

Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop is a brilliantly amazing and adorable song by Landon Pigg. It's one of my favourite songs in the universe and, even though I hate coffee, if things like what happen in the video actually would happen to me, I'd go to coffee shops. But, of course, not just everybody has a pocket watch that freezes time.

Unfortunately.

Landon Pigg is one of my favourite artists. He has such a unique voice and different sound. I am always on the look out for new artists like this. If you have one, drop a comment about them, and I'll hit them up. I love all genres, of course.

I've noticed lately that the music I've been listening to is a lot lighter of a sound. Plenty of acoustic music. Another of my favourite songs by Landon Pigg is Magnestismo.

Hope whoever has read this now had some awesome new music to enjoy!

-Persephone

Currently Here

Boys: Kyo, Neji, Soturi

Girls: Amarina, Megumi, Melina, Tenten

Dormant: Sparrow

Setting Records Straight

I just skimmed through my blog and realized that I am very, very easily swayed to think things that I never would think otherwise. So this post is about setting records straight.

Home issues: grandpa and dad are perverted, mom is depressed, parents bicker, dad drinks, dad's never home. Current home standing: grandpa is a huge pervert, dad's a subtle pervert, mom's improving, parents seem to love each other, dad drinks, dad's home too much.

Guys: all idiots who don't know a thing. Occasional exceptions, Poseidon's a huge jerk and terrible boyfriend. Current guys: they're idiots, but girls are the bigger idiots. Sure, there's exceptions. Poseidon is a really great guy and one of my best guy friends, if not my best, and while he wasn't the best boyfriend, it was half my fault. If you want an example of a jerk, take a look at Jones. He is the worst type of scum.

Relationships: terrible with Poseidon, amazing with Jones. Current relationships: I'm single and loving it. Jones was a huge creep and I was really happy with Poseidon. What I wanted wasn't what I needed and what I needed was what I really wanted.

Break ups: I broke up with Poseidon to get with Jones. Current break ups: I was manipulated by Jones to get with him, though I hadn't planned on it. I broke up with Poseidon mutually because he was unsure and it just wasn't working.

Are we clear? Current means that it's what actually happened. Since I'm looking with a clear head now and all. Stuff that doesn't have "current" in front of it is the old, tainted view. But not anymore~! No, sir, I've got it straight.

And how am I doing at the moment? Well, I'm not so good. Jones really messed with my head. I don't think people really realize how serious it is. But I do know how it can be fixed, and it's really simple. I just need somebody to hold for a good half an hour. Maybe cry a bit. Or a lot. But that'd fix me right on up, good as new. All this negativity I'm feeling will just be gone with the tears. Problem is finding somebody to hold me.

-Persephone

Currently Here

Boys: Soturi, Kyo, Neji

Girls: Amarina, Megumi, Melina, Sparrow, Tenten

Jones Soda

I had an amazing day at the lake today with one of my old friends from swimming, whom I am going to refer to as Milk. It was really fun and we caught up on all sorts of important stuff, like our love lives, our social lives, the gossip in the swim group we no longer are a part of, and just life in general. I will never get over just how much fun I always seem to have with her every summer. We never really run out of things to talk about. The day would have been absolutely perfect, especially considering I got to have a Dr. Pepper, one of my favourite sodas, if not for one tini-tiny thing.

I happened to be spotted by Jones.

Before you jump to conclusions, Teddy, because I know you will, I didn't talk to him. In fact, I'm not 100% sure he saw me. I am, however, 100% sure that his friend, whom I will call Fred, did see me. There was a good five seconds worth of eye contact before I tried to hide my face in the back of the car I was in. Seeing those two was enough to remind me that not even the pool, the place that I feel most at home at, which I can't help but wonder if Poseidon remembers me saying, is no longer safe. It was obvious Jones and Fred had just come from the pool, or the library at the pool, and were headed back to Jones' place. Insert tired, stressed sigh here.

Just seeing him made me self conscious. Ugh. This is eating me from the inside. I think that going to Rock Ridge next week will help me clear out the slimy feeling I have inside. It's like just by having once been so close to him, I'm contaminated.

Now on to another topic. I say a lot of bad things about the male gender in general on here. This is not to say there aren't exceptions! And the people I refer to (typically Poseidon...) have plenty of amazing things about them that totally makes up for the bad. Thing is that, bad as the male population is, the female population is worse. This can all be summed up in one, simple statement.

Despite knowing all the bad things about guys, we still love 'em.

Yeah, we're idiots, but what can you do?

Some of the exceptions might be Jack, Teddy, Dionysus, Wolfe, and, yes, Poseidon's a great guy, too, though he has his faults. All of them do, regrettably, but I just take their faults and I get over them. All their faults just highlight the good parts about them, anyway. Let's go through the list, shall we~?

Jack. He can be a little... How to say it... Bipolar? One minute he's got this decision, the next he's got that decision. However, this does highlight the fact that he actually considers things. When he decides something, he decides it with all his heart.

Teddy! Ah, Teddy. He rambles on forever. But he's a really good storyteller.

Dionysus can be a little over the top. But it's fun and if I ever need somebody to help me get rid of the stress of the day, I can count on him.

Wolfe~. I don't want to say bad things about my snuggle buddy, but he can be such a downer. Still, I just use this as a way of seeing the fact that, despite being all down in the dumps sometimes, he pushes all that aside when I need him.

Oh, best for last, eh? Poseidon, Poseidon, Poseidon... What to do with you? Just take a look at the blog. There's so many faults I could pick as an example. How about them all? I'm not going to list them. But I'll sum it up good: I love every single little annoying thing he does and I've got no idea why.

This is something I'm pretty sure has to do with the fact I was smacked in the head with a baseball bat as a small child. Not a wooden one, either, a metal one.

-Persephone

Currently Here

Males: Soturi, Kyo, ???

Females: Amarina

Dormant: Megumi, Melina, Neji, Sparrow, TenTen

Forgetting Something

I was supposed to write something on here for Teddy... Don't remember what it was.

Sorry, Teddy.

=P

-Persephone

Currently Here

Males : Kyo, Soturi

Females: Amarina, Megumi, Melina

Dormant: Neji, Sparrow, TenTen

New Member

I post today to introduce a new member to the party in my head. Her name is Amarina Hart and if you'd like to know what she looks like, google Gemma Ward for an idea. Amarina is Australian, about seventeen, and an extremely good person. Having her around puts me in a way better mood than usual, though she sometimes scolds me for being mean and a little too blunt. That's just Sparrow or Kyo slipping through, though.

"Through" and "though" are spelt really similarly... Just noticed.

Anyway! Yeah, so, Amarina. New party member. Woo! I'm using her to write in a Harry Potter roleplay, actually, at the moment, and she's in Hufflepuff. Closer idea of her personality... Stereotypical Hufflepuff. She's the Keeper on her quidditch team, too.

An few things on Soturi... He was a werewolf. Now he's also a wizard at Hogwarts in Ravenclaw. And he's also fighting a zombie apocalypse in Cambridge. He's probably going to make his way to London soon. Interesting how things happen? In the Hogwarts roleplay, he's also Finnish, since his first name is Finnish.

That's all for now~.

-Persephone