Missing You

Dear... You know

I'm probably not going to see you

this weekend... And I admit that it

really makes me sad. I miss you so

much already and it's been barely

over a day since I last saw you. I

could really use one of your hugs

right now. I was being an idiot

with Artemis, Demeter, Dionysus,

and one of the mortals again. You

should've figured out the one by

now, if you ever read these. Which

I highly doubt since you probably

don't even know this blog's url...

I should probably give it to you.

I want to talk to you so bad. But

I also want to give you space...

I hope you're having fun with your

friend out at the cabin. I also

kind of hope, and rather selfishly,

that you miss me a fraction of how

much I miss you right now... I very

selfishly hope that you wish I were

there to just be with you and laugh

with you and be an idiot, too...

I listened to the song today. Is

that really what you think? It had me

smiling like an idiot again... Oh,

I doubt I'm the perfect girl for

you, yet I really hope that I am.

I kind of feel like I am... I'm not

the worst, that's for sure. I could

be better... I promise that I will

try to be everything you want and

everything that you need. I want to

be that for you, because I know

that you're perfect for me, too.

I think I'll be able to go to that

camp this summer... It's something

I really look forward to. And the

fact that you talk as though we're

still going to be us so far ahead...

I hope you're right. I want us to

last, though I know we're not going

to have a particularly smooth ride.

I'm not going anywhere, though....

I hope you realize and remember that.

I'm not the best when it comes to

loyalties... I have my bruises and I

have my bumps. My own collection of

skeletons in the closet... I've cleaned

out most of them this past month, though.

I don't want you to have to deal with

so much trouble, just because of me.

I never want to trouble or burden you,

even though I undoubtedly will. I just

really hope I can conquer this last one

soon. Things will be a lot better if I

can... I get the feeling I'm going to

need your help, though. I get that

uneasy feeling it's going to be more

than slightly troublesome for you.

Sorry in advance. Please stick around?

Like I said... I miss you. I can't

wait to see you again after the weekend.

-Persephone