Musing

Hello again...

Last night I couldn't sleep. I was just so mad at you!

I still can't understand why you always go doing

those things you do... It gets on my nerves that you

can't even pay attention to me for more than a couple

seconds at a time! But... I guess I should be happy if

you're happy... Nothing makes me more relieved than

to see a genuine smile on your face. But your smile

isn't genuine lately... Is it? I still remember that one

time... You were so caught up in your thoughts. Should

I have left you to them? You worry me. I wanted to

know what was on your mind, but there was other

people around, so I couldn't really ask. I wanted to take

your hand... Anything to comfort you or just let you

know that I'm here and you are not alone. Ever. I

promise I'll always be here for you! Always... No matter

how much it hurts me... Because it does, even though I

hide it well. I have a high pain tolerance, you know. It

comes from years and years of gritting my teeth and

just bearing with it. I'm good at that... Like the song says;

"Tell me when you feel ready,

I'm the one there's not too many.

Hold my hand to keep me steady,

Just to be quiet,

With you..."

I know I shouldn't have there thoughts, but I just...

I just can't help it! I feel pathetic... You won't ever

read this letter, I'm sure... And if you do, you won't ever

realize that it's to you! But... I just want you to know...

...I miss you

~Persephone